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From 8m ago ‘All I want to do is cry’: trauma of 7 October survivors three years after the attacks Emma Graham-Harrison Keith Siegel spent many of his long hours in Hamas captivity in Gaza etching everything that happened after 7 October 2023 into his memory. For 484 days, he recited to himself every place he was held, the dates he was moved and every attack or humiliation he endured or witnessed. Keith Siegel and his wife, Aviva, were among 251 people taken captive to Gaza during the 7 October attacks on 7 October.
Photograph: Quique Kierszenbaum/The Guardian He aimed to store intelligence that could help Israeli forces free other hostages if he was released, to keep track of time as the days slid by and be able to tell his family what happened to him. Now his body is free, but he cannot loosen those memories. “I’m living a kind of dual life,” he said in an interview in Tel Aviv.
“I’m here for some of the time, and I’m in Gaza some of time. It’s very challenging to convey in words what it was like.” Siegel and his wife, Aviva, were among 251 people taken captive to Gaza on the deadliest day in Israel’s history, when Hamas militants broke across the border to launch a wave of attacks on kibbutzim, border towns, military bases and music festivals. “What happened to me in Gaza, what happened with Keith in Gaza, it’s there all the time,” said Aviva.
“I understand that it’s going to be a process of healing. There’s always things that remind me, and if I don’t remember, then he reminds me. If I’m cooking lunch or making a cup of tea and I turn around and see Keith with tears in his eyes, because he just read something or let himself feel.” Read more: Key events 8m ago ‘All I want to do is cry’: trauma of 7 October survivors three years after the attacks 25m ago Israel marks three years since 7 October attack by Hamas Israel marks three years since 7 October attack by Hamas We are starting our live coverage on the third anniversary of the Hamas-led 7 October attack on southern Israel , in which about 1,200 people were killed and another 251 taken captive to Gaza.
Israeli communities shattered by the massacres, torn between rebuilding their lives and remembering lost friends and relatives, have spoken to my colleague Emma Graham-Harrison about their experiences. Israel responded to the attack by launching a devastating war on Gaza , during which at least 74,243 people have been killed, according to the territory’s health ministry, whose figures are considered reliable by the UN. An Israeli soldier crouches to light a candle at the memorial to the victims of the 7 October attacks at the Nova festival site in Reim, southern Israel.
Photograph: John Wessels/AFP/Getty Images In 2025, a UN commission found that Israel is committing genocide in Gaza , citing tens of thousands of civilian deaths and massive destruction. Israel denies accusations of genocide, but the war, which is continuing despite a nominal ceasefire, has left it isolated on the world stage. Israel held a national memorial day on Monday for the victims of the Hamas attack and also remembered the soldiers who lost their lives fighting in Gaza.
Flags were lowered to half-staff at the Israeli parliament – the Knesset – and the president’s residence in the morning, while two state ceremonies were held at the Mount Herzl military cemetery in Jerusalem. Many Israelis are still grappling with the trauma of the 7 October attack, the deadliest in the country’s history, with the memory of the assault and its aftereffects continuing to loom large and feature heavily in political debate.
Source: The Guardian
